Everything looks perfect from far away

like the back of my hand
And I can't breathe
Without you, but I have to

A- Anemic. B- Boring. C- Chapstick. D- Dangerous. E- Easy going. F- Fatty. G- Grace. H- Horny. I- Interwebb J- Joseph<3 K- Kaedyn. L- Love. -M- Mommmmyyy. N- nympho(lolz). O- Orgasam? P- Peace. R- Random S-spacephobia T- Tired. U- Unique V- Vegan. W- Weird X- uhhhhh. Y- Young. Z- zombieeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.

I'm to damn dramatic!

I feel like a controlling, obssesive asshole. I hate the fact that I can't even sleep right now because I'm so worried about what's going on. I don't even know why i am. I shouldn't be. I should no that nothings going to happen, or atleast hope that I can trust him to not fuck this up. But instead I'm sitting here scared. This is all I do. Worry. How ridiculous. I really need to stop being like this, But really I can't help it, it isn't my fault that I have trust issues at all. I have a ton of people I can blame for that. But I want to change so bad. I feel like I need to for us to work out and stop fighting all the time and be how we use to be. When I was to scared to tell him that I was scared he'd do something. GODDDDDDDDDDDDDDD, and tonight, was awful. I don't even no why I got so mad. I was just so pissed because I was like 'WTF I CAN'T BELIEVE THE ONE NIGHT I GO OUT I DON'T EVEN DO ANYTHING' but really, idc. I made this choice. If I didn't want this repsonsibility I could of choose not to. I'm not going to be one of those moms who lives theryre kid with someone all the time so they can go do stupid shit.

whatever

this is a pointless blog
i hope nobody waste they're time reading this

imafaggott,

I miss you so much right now, I want you here so bad. It's raining so hard
and thundering, and all I can think about is cuddling with you while watching a movie.
But your at home sleeeeping, and I hate it =[

I can't wait to see you again


I love you.
endofstory

So I'm sitting here listening to shevanel take 2, and I can't even believe how much we've been through. This was our first song, ever. Other than this time imperfect, but this one was our first legit one once we started going out. I remember listeing to this song, one year ago from today sitting in my bed crying. Today was the saddest day of my life, and the start of the worst two months EVER. I have no idea how I survived without him for so long. I am pretty amazed with myself that I did. But geeeeeeeez, this time today a year ago I'd probaby be waiting for Joe to show up at my dads. We spent the whole day together until like 10 when EP came and got him. Goddd, I remember watching him get into the van thinking 'WTF HOW IS THIS THE LAST TIME IM GOING TO SEE HIM FOR 60 HOLE DAYS' I didn't believe. I didn't want to think I wasent going to to be able to see him everyday, or fall asleep with him anymore, or listen to him sing to me on the phone. But I'm so glad all of that is over with. I missed him so much. He's not going anywhere ever again.


i love you joeeeeeeeeeeeee <3
I think we shoud have a repeat of the day,
you have to admit it was amazing c:
minus the whole saying goodbye
and it would be the most perfect day in THE WORLDDDDDDDDD.

9am

cleaned

picinic =faill

turned in to a bbq

saww fianceee

fakecorndawggg

headache

tired

sore

sexxypictures frmm babbby c:

nuhhnighht.

I hatee it when I start feeling this way.
especially when I know it's for no reason at all.
I don't understand why I can't just always trust people alllllllllllllllll of the time.
why do I have to trust them completley one day, and the next not be sure if I can or not...


=[
fml

bought some fishehhs last night, and watched a girl get arrested at walmart, she was a fucking psycho.
I bet shes the next body they find in a ditch =O

I'm pretty sure I have nothing to important to say, so bai?